it's 5:00pm, rather warm in Sunnyvale, and I am travelling over 101, on Great America Parkway, as traffic is continuing to build. I have just left work, and my mind randomly wanders again. This time I was thinking about my feelings of when I am being "starstruck". Usually, this happens when a person come into contact with those who hold high profile jobs, such as actors or musicians, high political jobs or pretty much anyone in the limelight.
For me, I have never really experienced this weak kneed, giddy feeling one might get when coming into contact with those in high profile positions. I might be honored to gain knowledge from them, but never was one to be in awe of the mere presence of them. Ahhh, yes, I am familiar with the feeling, but.. this feeling usually happens to me when I am in love.
I was thinking that, when I am in love, I feel like I am so proud to be in the presence of my partner. In my head, I wonder "why everyone isnt in awe like I am". I wonder "why everyone doesnt feel the way I do". Like how can they just carry on through the day without smiling just because that person is alive and in their life. Now, certainly, I would not want the reality of everyone focusing their attention/affection on my partner, I might get a bit jealous or overwhelmed if this were to happen, as anyone probably would. But, my point is that I get giddy just seeing them. When in a crowd, I feel like they stand out, as if they were a flashing neon sign. I start to feel enveloped by joy and enamoured by their existence. Even after the initial "honeymoon phase" starts to settle into more of a established relationship, I still carry those same feelings around. That feeling of pride, and weak knees continues onward, way after the "honeymoon phase" has started to pass. Maybe it's stamina, I dont really know, all I can say is that when I focus my affection and love on my partner, it is without a doubt alive within me. It invigorates me, and I can get silly, giddy, and downright charmed to have them in my life. I will get excited to see them after a long day, as if I am meeting a princess or a prince. The reality is, I am starstruck by the love in my life, and not by the stars who are vacant from it.
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Excellent post, your partner must be proud.
I think it is wonderful that you have such strong emotions for your partner. Shouldn’t we all be that way?
It really is too bad that so many become enamored with stars rather than their significant others.
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